Do you ever find yourself trying hard to be merry and joyful during this season and anything little can dampen your spirits? I've been avoiding people a lot lately. Between work and trying to find time for my family, I don't have any time to spare, and when I do, the last thing I want to do, is deal with drama or crap. I found out a few of my so-called friends, avoid me and don't want to hang out with me because of my children. Innnnteresting....Yes people, I am a mother, and yes people I do cherish what little time I have with my children so they do tend to hang with me. One day, you will understand. I know that I have people out there judging me and every little thing I do or say. They are quick with the excuses or reasons why they do it, but I, try not to give them a second thought. Maybe the only thing they have going for them is thinking they are better than most, I don't know, all I know, is I pretty much don't care but pity you. And I truly don't care what you wish people greetings wise during this month. I'll say happy holidays if I want to and if you don't life it pffffffft on you.
I'm going to be honest and admit that right now, I'm having some pretty awful thoughts. I know I'm not the only one to go through this so I'm not ashamed. So I was going to make all my Christmas gifts this year. But then I found some great deals and some awesome websites (www.gummylump.com and no they didn't pay me to advertise that) and found a lot of neat stuff for my nieces, nephews, friend's kids, etc... that I just had to get. Realistically, I'm on a budget so I decided most of the adults I know won't be getting anything but their kids at least will. No offense to the adults I know but if you are a decent parent, I know you will understand. But I have some relatives that no matter what holiday it is, we get the chintziest gifts. It's like they try really hard not to spend anything and it was probably a gift given to them many years ago. Do you ever find yourself shopping for people and knowing they either won't do a thing for you or if they do, it was probably out of a guilty conscience that they even gave something to begin with. The whole, well I can't NOT get you something because you did get something for me theory? I'm not perfect so sometimes, I have a hard time wanting to do thing for some people. I try to be friendly with them, not getting much back, try to bite my tongue and not be cruel to them or about them to others, and then when it comes to this season I begin asking myself, I know the purpose of Christmas is to celebrate Jesus, God giving us Him, Jesus' love and so on and so forth, but man, can't I leave some people out? It's hard. Don't act like you never had a thought like this either, I bet some of you ARE like my crazy aunt Beth ; ) "Here's a can of Campbell's soup, Merry Christmas, oh and thank you for that awesome 53 1/3 inch flat screen hi-def tv!!!" It frustrates me but I guess I just have to do what I always do, bite my tongue, push away the ugly feelings, and do it because it's what God would do for me. Sometimes, it's difficult trying to be decent though...
Today I was blessed to have a day off from all my jobs and so I put on my footie pajamas with some funky panda bears on them (not my ideal choice but as it was the last pair left....)and sit and watch a few Veggietale movies and drink hot chocolate with the kidlets and husband. I love lazy days, especially since I only get one a week. In between working any of my four jobs, I have been working out here at home, cleaning my house, working on Bug's various school work-Awana-Christmas play stuff, and dealing with the holidays. I really wish we had an eight day week with 26 hours in a day. That would be so helpful! Crazy is just an understatement around here.
And if you think I have holiday music blaring around here, not yet. I went out and bought the first CD that I've bought in years, and it was Adele's cd. I love her music! I can't believe I bought it but I did. And if you haven't heard her or listened to her cd yet. Well you're probably crazy, out of touch with the world, orrrr have a really bad taste in music. Just sayin'....And kidding of course : )
Before I go, I must post a few pictures. We visited Santa a week ago and it was pretty fun. Bean didn't really care for the guy but he put up with a few pictures. And Bug was ecstatic. I don't know why, she knows he wasn't real...
And then we did the yearly family photos. The ones that will not only grace our gorgeous Christmas cards but also my family wall as well. What do you think? 
Out of all the years, so far, this one is my favorite. We only do one family picture a year so it's really awesome to see how we all change and grow. Maybe next year I'll have short hair...Don't count on it, lol.
Anyways, hope everyone is having a great weekend! I'm off to finish a great day by shopping for dinner and food stuffs for the week and read a really good book.
Anyways, hope everyone is having a great weekend! I'm off to finish a great day by shopping for dinner and food stuffs for the week and read a really good book.
Procrastinator! LOL! You must be a Montgomery ;) I think they rubbed off on me, because I am totally one, too! We haven't even done our Christmas pics yet. GASP! I know, I know! Shame on me!
ReplyDeleteAs far as gifts- I know its hard when you put a lot of thought into something and then you get something from someone else that doesn't seem to have the same amount of thought behind it. But maybe they have a bunch of friends and family to include, maybe a really tight budget, or maybe they just aren't good at picking gifts, so they figured something is better than nothing? It's not especially fair, but I try to assume the best about people and their intentions. Try not to impose expectations on anyone- good or bad. (if this isn't helpful advice, just disregard, this is just advice that I was given that I found helpful) Then if they do get you something great, that's fantastic! If not, no big deal! And we are the same when giving gifts- generally we focus on gifts to children, since most adults are capable of buying the things they want/need. I don't think there is anything wrong with that!
Hang in there! Blast that Adele music (I love her music!), and just have a good time!
As for people that don't want to hang out with you because of your kids, are they people that don't have kids of their own? Sometimes people without kids don't understand how hard it is to be a parent- they just assume that if you are doing your job, your kids will be perfect angels every second. As we both know, that is SO not the case. Just give them a little grace, even though they aren't showing you any. If someone isn't willing to accept ALL of you and who you are, be nice, but don't go out of your way. Ya know? As parents, we "owe" more to our kids than our friends, in my opinion, since we are responsible for them.
Panda jammies! You have no idea how jealous I am right now! Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
And I love the pics :) So crazy how much the kids change and grow in one year! AH! Sorry about this HUGE comment! I love you! Don't stress, and if you are, I am always here to talk to, if you need! And I am praying for you always :)
You really have a way of trying to find the positive about something. I would too, but you really have to meet this relative-gifter of mine, lol. When Hannah was born, I got a couple of cans of soup and five dollars in cash because now that I had had a baby, I'd finally appreciate the little things such as living cheaply. It would have been funny but when I graduated from high school, I got a 'get well soon' card from her, lol!! Thankfully though, I've grown to have some sort of humor in it. I literally expect socks this year. And not a full package either! LoL!!
ReplyDeleteThese friends don't have kids and I think it irritates them that I just don't like to dump them off and run off to have a good time. I enjoy doing things with my kids. I never got to hang out with my mom so living direct opposite of her, I want my kids around constantly. Especially after working so much. I kinda like these boogers and all ;)
Thee pjs were pretty rad. I enjoyed just taking it totally easy for a day and not doing a thing. Husband won't quit making fun of me now buuuuuut it was completely worth it, lol. I think I bought them at Target two years ago. They didn't fit when I bought them and when I pulled them out again a few days ago and tried them on to discover they fit finally, it was such a proud moment. I wore them just because I could kinda thing. I love losing weight ugh!
I love huge comments, don't worry :) And I always accept prayer. Lord knows I need all I can get. Once things settle down after the new year, I will be back to chill and bubbly. Stupid stress and poopy days. TOM anyone?!? LoL!