It's not that I'm frustrated at the people but more of how they think. And how they assume we know nothing about the choices we have made. They think that just because we announced my husband's joining the Army a few days ago, that means that we decided in 3.2 seconds about it. Trust me everyone, we have been married for six years and the military has been discussed and analyzed for that long. This was no rash decision. Yes we do realize husband could be deployed or even killed while serving. But isn't that true of flying on an airplane or driving in traffic anymore? And yes I realize that the chances are higher in the military than on a two way highway in North Dakota, I was speaking sarcastically. Husband and I know where we are going when we die. Death happens. Yes I would be broken hearted and yes I would miss him always. But if I lived my life in constant fear of him dying, I would have him locked up in a room for always. Good luck on that. Yes the pay is being scrutinized with a chance of being cut. Yes even if it isn't cut it isn't the greatest pay rate. But sometimes, the best jobs, the ones we truly love and do well, are the ones that pay almost nothing. I'd rather my husband do what makes him happy and do it well rather than be miserable doing a meaningless job. Money truly isn't everything and now that our debt is almost cleared up, I finally believe that ; ) My husband could be gone for a year or eighteen months, our marriage could end, why would I want that? I never, ever said that I wanted my marriage to end or that it would. The one thing I hold proud is that I don't believe in divorces. Ever. Everything in a marriage is fixable. Trust me, we have seen a lot in our six year marriage. A lot that would make most marriages crumble. Ours didn't and won't. Trust me. We hold onto our vows. And honestly, husband and I get along better when we don't see each other everyday. I don't do clingy and neither does he.
My point is that I listen to everyone's concerns and while I appreciate that you care enough to be concerned, I appreciate not being treated as a 13 year old all over again. We have thought and prayed over every aspect of our decision. And the result is that we found way more positives than negatives. When we move to wherever the Army wants husband stationed, it will be new and exciting and so many more opportunities. We are three hours away from the nearest synagogue. I wouldn't even call it that as the rabbis are all rabbis from other places who only visit once a month and not during the summer. I'm sure wherever we go (especially if on the east coast) we will finally be near one, my kids can begin their learning and life, religious-wise will be great! My kids will have the chance to join in activities such as gymnastics, karate, sports, or clubs like the Boy's & Girl's Club. Small town life just isn't for me anymore, what can I say?
Oi it sounds like I'm ungrateful or hate my town. I don't. I love this town. Sure the drama and gossip gets old. And yes, winter sucks. No lie. But it's so nice knowing everyone and knowing how safe you are. Where else can you leave your car running and unlocked while you go grocery shopping? Or go fifteen years without ever locking your doors to your house? It's great! But it's time for a change...
We are still making baby steps to this and taking things one day at a time. Life is still going on. Work for both of us is still stressful but still paying the bills so why complain? School shopping is gong to be commencing in another week for Bug. Beanie is going to be getting his birthday pictures done and I have to begin the process of planning some friends' baby showers and the kidlets' birthday party. Halloween preparations have begun as well! Mommy-hood sure is exciting these days. Busy, a little on the stressful side but all for the good excitement : )
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